Finalities

Strong words, strong feelings, but not enough strength

I have pulled everything that I can to bring myself to say, “Goodbye”

Reluctantly, I agreed to cut the string.

Confusion, delusion, I shun these things

Mental illness, emotional pain — they are too heavy for me to bear.

A stern persona, a mask of indifference, but I could barely contain the pain

I have a whirlpool of emotions stirring inside me.

Begrudgingly, I wrote a letter of goodbye.

Defiance, reluctance, I chose to give up

Anger, betrayal — for the promise of an unadulterated faith and loyalty

Despair, hatred, all I have is bitterness.

I put trust and faith is us and yet I let this dream vanish.

Impulsively, I chose to disappear from your life and banished you from mine.

Indestructible, sturdy, at least that is what I thought about our string.

Apologies are not enough, repentance is not either.

Willingly, I let go.

Goodbye, my love, goodbye.

Sarah Montenegro

Sarah is an NYC professional by day, a writer by night. She writes horror and tragic stories, and sometimes, about past lives. Recently, she tried dabbling into poetry. You can email her at stsyrlin@outlook.com and you can check out her short stories at sorenlysander.wordpress.com.

One thought on “Finalities

  1. Juan Day

    This is wonderful work. It makes me feel connected eternally to the speaker, despite the finality of the message. Saying goodbye to people involves choices, but muses stay with us forever.

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